21st of October 2012

Life has been an ass to me for awhile now, until this amazing girl came into my life just 3 days ago. Her name is Belinda le. she is so amazing, kind, smart, beautiful and what's the best thing about her is that she loves to talk and she cant stop talking. I love that about her. We have so much in common, like seriously so many things in common that it scares me at times, like I thought I was the only one doing or listening to these weird stuff. I guess I'm not the only weird person in this world :) I see her as a gift, me and her has been so much shit, shit that's been hurting us for a very long time. I do honestly believe we do deserve each other. ill treat her right, better than al my ex's. But even though we love together and just got together, there are some things that has been bothering me, but I'm afraid of the answer. curiosity does kill doest it? But right now I have so much trust in her so I wont bother asking her these questions. what is a relationship without trust right? well let me tell you what is bothering me right now. I don't like how she tells my best friend everything that has been happening to her and not me. Like I'm the boyfriend aren't I? don't I deserve to know what's been going on? tell him everything and make me find out through him, you don't know how much it hurts. I don't like people lying to me. I seriously don't. if you ever do lie, I seriously wouldn't know how to feel. I'm scared when you go parties. what if some guy tries to do something dodgy to you. Yet I don't mind that much. what kills me most right now is that you don't even like talk to me properly. you talk to sunny like no tomorrow  if you like talking to him so much, then he should be your boyfriend. seriously, what's a boyfriend that knows nothing about what's going on with his girlfriends life? I care for you that's why I'm worried and thinking this way. You barely show me that you love me. how do I actually know if you love me. cause Belinda  I really really do love you. with all my heart. can you please try and be okay, cause I'm seriously about to cry if I hear you getting hit by your dad. or you talking to sunny and not me.


Andyy