22nd of October 2012

So today i woke up at 7:45 which was a good start i guess? i never wake up on time and my girlfriend always calls me fat and lazy cause i mostly wake up at 1-2 ish :( that arse is gonna get it one day, gonna like full lock her down one day and full tickle her til she cries! i swear i will :) but overall i love her so much :) she really makes me happy! like omg it seriously does, today i planned to like not go out at all and just go straight home after my piercing and haircut and do workouts for my abs :D cause i didnt want to see anyone else. not even her, cause of what i felt last night made me dont wanna see her for awhile to see if she really cared for me. Today i did end up going out and i did end up seeing her. Met up with her at happy cup and she said hi to everyone else first and lastly me. i felt so shit when she did that though and what is worse is that she sat next to someone else but not me. so yeah i guess i was mood killed a bit. well a lot. i just kept listening to my music at full blast so i cant hear what they are talking about or anything. They decided to go shisha so yeah i had to go no choice. The walk to shisha was so awkward, me and her didnt talk well basically cause i was ignoring everyone. i walked alone, seems like she didnt care at all. But my friend brendan came to me and said that ''shes scared to ask whats wrong'' i dont know why she would be scared though but oh well i was even more mood killed after that. we got into shisha i sat on the sofa where it could fit 3 people. belinda and sunny was buying the shisha so it was just me and brendan but brendan sat on another sofa, then i was like what if she sat next to me and all? so i decided to like sit on those single sofa so yeah :\ she came and sat on the sofa on my right and was just there silent. to be honest it really did seem like she didnt need me as a boyfriend. we just sat there for awhile and i had a lot of things on my mind and i kept thinking. over and over again, then i decided to sit next to her and talked to her on notes on her phone :) it was nice then we started talking normally again :) i dont know i just cant get mad at her for long. she is my everything at the moment. i dont want to lose her at all. i seriously love you belinda :) youre gonna see this one day but just hope its not anytime soon cause its embarrassing and you have so much to deal with already :( DONT WORRY ILL REMEMBER THAT THE BUS WILL COME AT 4:36 :) LOVE YOU TO BITS :D oh that picture reminds me of how good belinda is and how crappy and old i am :( I DONT KNOW HOW COULD A GIRL LIKE HER FALL FOR A GUY LIKE ME D: BUT I FEEL SO LUCKY :) love you heaps and forever belinda <3

Andyy