24th of October 2012

Well to start my day is that i woke up early but felt lazy as fuck to go school :( so i stayed home all day til like 4? and called up sunny and asked where he was, he said shisha and he might go library later so i said ill meet up at library later. I could have went to shisha but i wanted to see how long would it take for belinda to come library for me. usually she would come around 6 but she came around 7 and like yeah i was sad a bit... well a lot cause she spends more time with sunny than me. Cant believe i feel this way though. its been a week and im already jealous? fuck sake man, im like the worst boyfriend ever. yeah could have guessed i ignored her and went outside when she said be right back to everyone. i was upset so i went home. stayed home for a bit and thought about how i acted. how much shit im giving her. then fuck i miss her so much and quickly ran to the library but it was too late. apparently i was 5 mins too late. FUCK MAN, i feel so bad for leaving now. i feel bad cause how i made her feel. im totally the worst boyfriend ever.... she deserve someone better... but i really do love her :( so i cant let her go :( got back to library and then walked to sunnys and talked to belinda through facebook. oh my god at the things she told me. i feel so bad and holy fuck at the things ive done to her. i feel super guilty now. why did i had to be a dickhead. why did i had to act this way. im sorry belinda :( i only wish to make you happy :( i swear from this day on i will never make you upset :( i seriously love you <3 dont leave me D: i promise everything will be better soon :(

Andyy